Paige

SWITCH

2005-12-21T09:02:11Z

I'm back to my old LiveJournal jessicawhitney, so you should most def add me there. Entries will be filled with pictures, and stuff like that within a week, and everything will be more interesting like it was before, and I will no longer be your most boring LiveJournal friend. Kay, so add me there, bye. =]</span>

I think this'll be my last entry.

2005-12-02T05:37:47Z

You feel alone. No matter how many people you have by your side. You run to drugs for comfort, because when you're high it's the only time you feel happy, "truely happy." Do you even remember what you did when you were high? Does it really seem worth it when the high wears off and you're back to feeling empty like you always have? You want people to like you. I know it's cliche to say that you only say yes to drugs because all of your friends are doing it. But, isn't it true? All your friends are doing it. If they haven't done it would you have ever experienced your first high? Your first time being blazed. When you went to that drink up, did it really make you have a fun time? Were you so drunk, that you got taken advantage of? And you woke up with the worst hangover ever, and a horrible ache in your stomach feeling emptier than ever. You feel like no one is really ever there. You can never always have someone to run to. You run to sex for comfort. Because it makes you feel wanted. It makes you feel needed. It makes you feel loved. But you know, as soon as it's over, you're no longer needed until next time. You, you don't run to any of that, but you feel still empty. Like something in your life is missing, and you try so hard to fill that hole. And you don't care because you're living off those only times you have to feel wanted, loved, and needed. To feel like someone actually cares. I know what you need to feel that way all the time..

You need God.

I mean, coming from one teen to another. I was lost without God. I was empty. I envied anyone who knew what the needed in their life. Who they were. Who knew they were loved. But I'm here to tell you, that you are one of those people. You are loved, you are Jesus' christ child, and He wants you, and you need him to feel whole. You really do. There honestly is no other way.

Ps. I'll be here to talk to you, if you want to know more, if you want to go to church, anything.

acissejacissej @ 2005-11-30T22:19:00

2005-12-01T06:24:35Z

I've accepted Jesus Christ into my heart, and into my life. I know it's going to be a crazy rollercoaster but I want it, and I'm gonna get it, no matter how much I have to give up. I want to help people find God so bad, you have no idea. I want to save people, I want to scream out my testimonies to those they can touch. And who says I can't start now? They say I'm young, but I feel like I've wasting so many years not knowing God, doing stupid things, and I'm still catching up. But I'm going to do this. I'm going to be bold, and I'm going to worship, praise, and spread the word. Because my heart wants it so much, and I can't hold this back, not this.

I'm sorry to all those I've hurt, and said mean things about.
Even if it was just this morning, or this afternoon. I'm sorry.
I really do care about you. So much.

I'm leaving LiveJournal for good, but I won't delete this for a while.
I'll pray for all of you.
I know some of you could care less about what I have to say, and I accept that.
But just know, someone does love you, and someone is praying for you. And He's there for you.
You just have to want it.

acissejacissej @ 2005-08-25T19:05:00

2005-08-26T02:09:42Z

I'm changing. I'm forgiving. I'm really trying this time.

And, It's bringing the best out of me.

acissejacissej @ 2005-08-21T16:42:00

2005-08-21T23:47:55Z

I finally got to see my cousins in LA, we only go about once every year. It really sucks, and so does the ride there. This time it took us 5 hours, and my grandpa and Tia Jeanette went with us, so we were crowded, and I had to sit next to my Tia, and the whole ride I was so annoyed by her and her dentures clacking together, ugh.

Yeah, that's my little brother, and I don't know why he looks so much more mexican than I.
I have more, but I think I'll post them in my next entry so it won't be so boring.

acissejacissej @ 2005-04-22T15:18:00

2005-04-22T22:19:30Z

friends only